It was the only thing I've ever really revised for. I read all the books, I did my homework, I knew my options and I'd written the plan.
Apparently it doesn't work like that.
Goodbye water birth, goodbye aromatherapy and massage. Good bye yoga positions and active birthing.
Oh hi there tubes, needles, catheters and drips.
It wasn't what I wanted. I could be sad. I could feel disappointed.
But I don't.
I now have the most precious thing in the world held to my chest and she makes everything worth it.
My daughter, Bean*.
And by the way, my hand isn't normally that swollen.
*Not her real name :)
*Not her real name :)
Congrats Crystal. Best wishes to you and the family!
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Reading this made me cry! Same thing happened with me and my first, Lydia. I remember right when she was born that I had to make a decision to mourn the loss of my wonderful plans and be defined by how I gave birth OR to love and care for the new baby girl that had been graciously given to us...I chose the latter.
ReplyDelete(and went on to have some great natural births in the years to come)
A belated congratulations.
Thank you! I really hope that the next one is better, it's good to know that it does happen. What sort of births did you have?
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ReplyDeleteJust found this thread again...went on to have all natural births no drugs...except gas and air for the last one--I was so exhausted. Anyway, had one in a hospital but the other three at home. lovely.