The Baby Blues

You know they've hit when you find yourself sobbing watching Tool Academy.

I always had such high expectation of myself as a mother. So much that I wanted to achieve and provide. The need to be supermum.

I hadn't prepared myself for the guilt. I'm never quite sure what I've done wrong. It's more the fear that I haven't got it right. I have never felt so exhausted and so lazy all at the same time. I need to figure out how to juggle everything. To make everything seem ok. To be a person that she can look up to and that can set an example. I need to become the person that I've always wanted to be, now I have the motivation to.

I just hope I'm up to the challenge.

I think I'm over the worst of it. For now.

She is my motivation and my inspiration. I can become a better person for her.

I guess it's a good thing, to care this much means you have to love a whole lot more. That can never be a bad thing,

Oh, and if you haven't already, watch Tool Academy. Really.