5 Years

Today is mine and Hubbles five year anniversary (and 6 months since the day we were wed).

We have come so far in five years, a home, marriage and now our beautiful daughter.

So tonight will be spent drinking champagne (my first booze since the birth), eating thai and snuggling as a family.

What a lovely life.

The First Weekend Excursion

It was a drizzly and grey day in Greenwich but it marked a new milestone for our little family: our first family outing!

We spent a few hours meandering around the Market where hubble ate some Chinese food and I bought a summer turban. The market itself was not brilliant but the shops around the outskirts are fab. I bought my own body weight in sweets from Mr Humbug and discovered an amazing designer called Sika, the shop was a little wonder of beautiful clothes, I think I may have to buy a dress from there for my friends wedding in the summer. Yay!

I also fell in love with the paper cut art of Paper Moon, we are a little bit poor at the moment but as soon as I have some spare pennies I will be returning to buy something lovely for our walls.

Sunday is now Family Excursion day.

Roll on next weekend!

The Baby Blues

You know they've hit when you find yourself sobbing watching Tool Academy.

I always had such high expectation of myself as a mother. So much that I wanted to achieve and provide. The need to be supermum.

I hadn't prepared myself for the guilt. I'm never quite sure what I've done wrong. It's more the fear that I haven't got it right. I have never felt so exhausted and so lazy all at the same time. I need to figure out how to juggle everything. To make everything seem ok. To be a person that she can look up to and that can set an example. I need to become the person that I've always wanted to be, now I have the motivation to.

I just hope I'm up to the challenge.

I think I'm over the worst of it. For now.

She is my motivation and my inspiration. I can become a better person for her.

I guess it's a good thing, to care this much means you have to love a whole lot more. That can never be a bad thing,

Oh, and if you haven't already, watch Tool Academy. Really.

Seen...

On Bright Bazaar...

The picture is from the Zara home collection. Nice, nothing special, but...

The sink.

Look at the sink.

I must have a porcelain clam sink for my bathroom. It is top of my everything list. Aaargh, I love it. Make it mine.

So Many Goodies!

I just bought these! Aren't they amazing! They are from Too Much Too Young which is my dangerous discovery for the day. The site is full of vintage toys and wonderful retro textiles and bone china. I have completely fallen in love with their stuff. 

The deer cushion is next on my to buy list for the nursery. I will buy something for myself with my birthday money at some point but filling the nursery seems so much more fun for now!

Too Much Too Young found through here.

A Question

Does anyone know what this type is? I love it and am desperate to use it in a mural Hubble and I are orchestrating for little Bean.

Help!

A Natural Birth

It was the only thing I've ever really revised for. I read all the books, I did my homework, I knew my options and I'd written the plan.

Apparently it doesn't work like that.

Goodbye water birth, goodbye aromatherapy and massage. Good bye yoga positions and active birthing.

Oh hi there tubes, needles, catheters and drips.

It wasn't what I wanted. I could be sad. I could feel disappointed.

But I don't.

I now have the most precious thing in the world held to my chest and she makes everything worth it.

My daughter, Bean*.

And by the way, my hand isn't normally that swollen.

*Not her real name :)

Nursery Inspiration

Hubble and I love books.

I personally have always had a bit of a love affair with children's books. The first thing I did when I found out I was pregnant was a trip out for a book splurge. I love illustration, bright colours and magical stories, they make me feel like a child.

So when I saw this room (on Ohdeedoh)I fell in love. I adore the idea of being able to see all the beautiful pictures rather than a tiny little spine, and, since Hubble has been pushing for some picture shelves for a while, we've agreed to re-jig the nursery to fit in a little reading area. First we need to sell our large cumbersome changing table (it was second hand anyway and massive), buy a little rocking chair and then we are on our way!

I will show you one day. You may get some snippets soon, but I still have a little way to go before I am satisfied!